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Your Story
03:18
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Your Story
Just want a part in your story
Just wanna play a part in your life
And I will never be sorry
For feeling like we’d have been so damn right
You said this was all that you wanted
I gave you all that you wanted, but it was always too much
For years I kept my heart in a closed chest
But you wanted it opened and then it wasn’t enough
All the messages you sent me
Made my walls come crashing down
And left me wanting
To be a part in your story
To play a part in your life
And I will never be sorry
For feeling like we’d have been so damn right
Just want a part in your story
Just wanna play a part in your life
And I will never be sorry
For feeling like we’d have been so damn right
In too deep but you said it was ok
So I tried to make you stay when you said it was done
You scooped me out like it was all just a fly-by
When you’d chased me all those nights; all your feelings just gone
Every move you made to make me feel
To make me give it all
Then left me wanting
||: To be a party in your story :||
||: There’s no one playing games :||
With you!
Just want a part in your story
Just wanna play a part in your life
And I will never be sorry
For feeling like we’d have been so damn right
||: Just want a part in your story:||
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2. |
Broken Record
03:33
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Broken Record
Saying sorry doesn’t cut it when you know it doesn’t mean a thing
I lie here waiting for the Nothing to take my brain far away from me
Saying sorry doesn’t cut it try to tell me that you don’t feel proud
Of what you’ve done and how you did it when you buried every feeling down
Can’t get you out of my head
I’m still dreaming of you in my bed
You’re like a song that won’t end
Heart breaking melody goes round again
Saying sorry doesn’t cut it your words go through me like they’re fire through ice
You say you said it all to early I say you fear yourself and ran to hide
Can’t get you out of my head
I’m still dreaming of you in my bed
You’re like a song that won’t end
Heart breaking melody goes round again
Saying sorry doesn’t cut it your actions gutting me, they turn me out
The pain keeps flowing like a river as my heart shivers one moment more
Can’t get you out of my head
I’m still dreaming of you in my bed
You’re like a song that won’t end
Heart breaking melody goes round again
I’m :|| closing off turn off this record player
I’m closing off it’s broken I can’t take it :||
Can’t get you out of my head
I’m still dreaming of you in my bed
You’re like a song that won’t end
Heart breaking melody goes round again
I’m :|| closing off turn off this record player
I’m closing off it’s broken I can’t take it :||
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Here We Go Again (Black Dog)
Looks like it hit me again; head in a vice as the loneliness creeps
Seeps into my pores like the sea on the shore; I can breathe and I can’t swim
I can’t eat, still can’t sleep
I’ve been here for hours and hours
I’m in pain, can’t explain
Black dog at the heart of it
Here we go again
Here we go again
You’re my old friend
Dragged down again
Here we go again
Here we go again
Let’s just pretend
That we’re not wanting it to end
And so the days have passed - walls are closing on a sardine in a tin
Lightless void in the silent noise is driving me insane
I can’t eat, still can’t sleep
I’ve been here for hours and hours
I’m in pain, can’t explain
Black dog at the heart of it
Here we go again
Here we go again
You’re my old friend
Dragged down again
Here we go again
Here we go again
Let’s just pretend
That we’re not wanting it to end
||: The fear I fight taking one last bite
And I’m standing on the edge :||
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4. |
Silent Screams
03:38
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Silent Screams
When I wake up in the morning and I’m thinking which way’s best
To throw myself off buildings to land nicely on my head
It might be time to rethink the direction of my path
Take back control of the black hole that’s swallowing my heart
||: In a glass box staring out
My words fall silent all around and
You can’t hear me scream for help
My mouth unmoving drowns me out :||
The pain deep in my chest I feel is like a spreading vine
Reaching out it’s tendrils like a cancer in my mind
Black like tar and thick like blood seeps in to every vein
Fighting feels so futile when it’s paired with spreading shame
All the failure of my past and on it goes through everything
The failure in the path I walk, that voice of treason on it sings
I can’t seem to block it out; I’m lost, I’m lonely, on my own
The hissing bile it always spouts, I am nothing, voices groan
||: In a glass box staring out
My words fall silent all around and
You can’t hear me scream for help
My mouth unmoving drowns me out :||
||: I’m trapped inside a glass box
I’m trapped inside this box
And you can’t hear me screaming
Because nothing’s coming out
I’m trapped inside a glass box
And i’m calling out your name
But the silence keeps on falling
While I can’t escape my shame :||
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5. |
Bitter
03:39
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Bitter
Sitting on the pile of hate that I collect and keep
I’ve been tasting bile of late and it’s washing over me
I said I could forgive you but I’m taking all that back
I thought I would forget but you’re the focus of my wrath
Everybody thinks you’re golden and the socials show your fame
No one knows the truth about you but a snake you will remain
Any time I see your name or your stupid happy face
The violence I can feel uprising makes my body start to shake
Hey! I’m bitter
You got me here with hate
Now I’m bitter
My heart can’t stop this ache
I’m bitter
There’s comfort in this place
While I’m bitter
I never knew I had it in to want to rip someone apart
But everything you say and do is like a poison to my heart
Let me spit this out for you and let me make it crystal clear
You’re lucky I don’t speak your name and smudge that super sleek veneer
Now I know you’re “Punk as fudge” yeah mate, you’re sickly sweet and soft
You’re a gutless, spineless wonder now I’m glad you binned me off
I’m gonna say this one again just to make damn sure that you hear
You’re lucky I don’t speak your name and smudge that super sleek veneer
Hey! I’m bitter
You got me here with hate
Now I’m bitter
My heart can’t stop this ache
I’m bitter
There’s comfort in this place
While I’m bitter
||: I wish I could say I wish you well
But I still hope you burn in hell :||
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6. |
Poor Man's Show
03:22
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Poor Man’s Show
Take a big look around - you can’t tell me that you’re proud
Of the country that we live in while it’s run by wealthy cavemen
When we’re moving out the homeless for a clean looking wedding
For a palace full of fools dining on a poor man’s earnings
You seriously think that we should be ok
With the suffering we see on the streets of decay
When lying in their homes and shivering in bed
There’s people who are sick who’ve had cuts to their care
And there’s children getting ricketts while their parents are gone hungry
Cos the food they can afford does no good but fills their bellies
How can we go on with life
So broken down by those who thrive
We’d rather sew our mouths tight shut
Than think about how we’ve messed up
Ooh it’s a poor man’s show
We’d rather sew our mouths tight shut
Than think about how we’ve messed up
Tightest squeeze on budgets in NHS historics
Death rates up in hospitals, no mental health resources
Ambulances forced to wait while waiting rooms are full
And there’s people having heart attacks out on the stone cold floor
There’s no more money for the nurses to do the jobs we need
But apparently there’s trillions for bombing overseas
How can we go on with life
So broken down by those who thrive
We’d rather sew our mouths tight shut
Than think about how we’ve messed up
Ooh it’s a poor man’s show
We’d rather sew our mouths tight shut
Than think about how we’ve messed up
Four people stabbed in a night is a norm
When the police are replaced with a screen on the arm
No control that we see for the brutality
Is a double edged sword when we’ve lost the bobby
Cos it’s the fight for our rights and the right to feel safe
But there’s no money left for either problem they say
And we’re left feeling numb to everything that we see
Cos every day there’s something that should never have been
We’re right to feel angry, betrayed and awake
To the tyranny forced on our heads every day
I’m sick of being told that the fault lies with us
When the perversion of justice sits in parliament
How can we go on with life
So broken down by those who thrive
We’d rather sew our mouths tight shut
Than think about how we’ve messed up
||: Ooh it’s a poor man’s show
We’d rather sew our mouths tight shut
Than think about how we’ve messed up :||
We’d rather sew our mouths tight shut….
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7. |
Panic
03:14
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Panic!
Hey! Where you from? Do you like the taste of blood
It’s on your hands! And your tongue… spreading fast just like poison
And still we spray all around the killing draught on all the land
Their voices pray for an end to the torture we’ve become
||:Panic, panic we’ve got to put the fire out
Why don’t you panic, panic about the oceans crying out
Wake up and panic, panic the World is quickly dying out
You’re blind to panic, panic :||
Panic, panic!
Trawl the bottom ‘til marine life is all gone
Pollute the waves with ignorance ‘til there’s plastic in our lungs
Participate in the fun - we’ve fed our planet destruction
And still we sit on our thumbs; procrastination’s all we’ve done
It’s time to
||:Panic, panic we’ve got to put the fire out
Why don’t you panic, panic about the oceans crying out
Wake up and panic, panic the World is quickly dying out
You’re blind to panic :||
Panic, panic!
Hey! Where you from? Do you like the taste of blood
It’s on your hands! And your tongue… spreading fast just like poison
And still we spray all around the killing draught on all the land
Their voices pray for an end to the torture we’ve become
||:Panic, panic we’ve got to put the fire out
Why don’t you panic, panic about the oceans crying out
Wake up and panic, panic the World is quickly dying out
You’re blind to panic, panic; Panic panic! :||
Panic Panic!
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8. |
Glitter Mix
04:38
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Glitter Mix
Brave little innocent, sweet lemon on your pretty lips
Travel like the world’s been given but you bathe in ignorance
Watch as your body’s taken, skin stripped of glitter mix
You’d sell your soul for powder when you’re low and needing one more hit
And we watch
And we watch
And we watch as she fades away
Yeah we watch
And we watch
And we watch as she fades away
She’s fire, she’s beauty, she’s a mess on ketamine
Forgot what she’s been drinking, can’t remember what she did with him
Her face is like a rose; petals falling from it after snow
While her party rages on, the next line will let her lose control
Brave little innocent, makes cherry bombs for all the girls
Her eyes full of wonder, buying love with stardust doesn’t work
Though she sees that others love her harder than all the rolled up candy guns
She wipes the canvas of tomorrow while we stand and watch her colours run
Her colours run
Her colours run…..
And we watch
And we watch
And we watch as she fades away
Yeah we watch
And we watch
And we watch as she fades away
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9. |
Not Ok
03:20
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Not Ok
People keep on telling me that it’s ok
If I’m not ok then know there will be better days
But I’m sat here in my kitchen with my mental knife in hand
I’ve been chopping at my throat for days and I still don’t see the sun
So don’t ask me if I’m fine
||: I’m not ok
I don’t see myself being that way
I haven’t been for years
But I’ve got masks made up to cover up my tears :||
I’m not ok...
I’ve been building up my repertoire of daily songs to sing
They’re ones that people need to hear when they say anything
Well I’m singing that I’m fine today and I’ll sing it back to you
But my mask just cracked, now I’m back stage in my darkest room
So don’t ask me if I’m fine
||: I’m not ok
I don’t see myself being that way
I haven’t been for years
But I’ve got masks made up to cover up my tears :||
I’m not ok...
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10. |
Burnout
03:58
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Burnout
New town
New lights
New faces every night
In turn
Heartburn
Beer stains and nighttime drives
We work
All day
Two jobs on minimum wage
No sleep
For weeks
No time to rest when you follow your dreams
When everyone goes
While everything fades
Never feels like its gone to waste
We still hit the road
I’ve been here before
It couldn’t be more
Familiar
Its home
When the panic hits
And the deadlines are missed
We’ve got nothing to lose
We keep on
Feel like we crash
Spinning plates we can’t catch
As we run for the finish line
Holding hands as we burn
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