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Telling Truths, Breaking Ties

by Millie Manders and The Shutup

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1.
Your Story 03:18
Your Story Just want a part in your story Just wanna play a part in your life And I will never be sorry For feeling like we’d have been so damn right You said this was all that you wanted I gave you all that you wanted, but it was always too much For years I kept my heart in a closed chest But you wanted it opened and then it wasn’t enough All the messages you sent me Made my walls come crashing down And left me wanting To be a part in your story To play a part in your life And I will never be sorry For feeling like we’d have been so damn right Just want a part in your story Just wanna play a part in your life And I will never be sorry For feeling like we’d have been so damn right In too deep but you said it was ok So I tried to make you stay when you said it was done You scooped me out like it was all just a fly-by When you’d chased me all those nights; all your feelings just gone Every move you made to make me feel To make me give it all Then left me wanting ||: To be a party in your story :|| ||: There’s no one playing games :|| With you! Just want a part in your story Just wanna play a part in your life And I will never be sorry For feeling like we’d have been so damn right ||: Just want a part in your story:||
2.
Broken Record Saying sorry doesn’t cut it when you know it doesn’t mean a thing I lie here waiting for the Nothing to take my brain far away from me Saying sorry doesn’t cut it try to tell me that you don’t feel proud Of what you’ve done and how you did it when you buried every feeling down Can’t get you out of my head I’m still dreaming of you in my bed You’re like a song that won’t end Heart breaking melody goes round again Saying sorry doesn’t cut it your words go through me like they’re fire through ice You say you said it all to early I say you fear yourself and ran to hide Can’t get you out of my head I’m still dreaming of you in my bed You’re like a song that won’t end Heart breaking melody goes round again Saying sorry doesn’t cut it your actions gutting me, they turn me out The pain keeps flowing like a river as my heart shivers one moment more Can’t get you out of my head I’m still dreaming of you in my bed You’re like a song that won’t end Heart breaking melody goes round again I’m :|| closing off turn off this record player I’m closing off it’s broken I can’t take it :|| Can’t get you out of my head I’m still dreaming of you in my bed You’re like a song that won’t end Heart breaking melody goes round again I’m :|| closing off turn off this record player I’m closing off it’s broken I can’t take it :||
3.
Here We Go Again (Black Dog) Looks like it hit me again; head in a vice as the loneliness creeps Seeps into my pores like the sea on the shore; I can breathe and I can’t swim I can’t eat, still can’t sleep I’ve been here for hours and hours I’m in pain, can’t explain Black dog at the heart of it Here we go again Here we go again You’re my old friend Dragged down again Here we go again Here we go again Let’s just pretend That we’re not wanting it to end And so the days have passed - walls are closing on a sardine in a tin Lightless void in the silent noise is driving me insane I can’t eat, still can’t sleep I’ve been here for hours and hours I’m in pain, can’t explain Black dog at the heart of it Here we go again Here we go again You’re my old friend Dragged down again Here we go again Here we go again Let’s just pretend That we’re not wanting it to end ||: The fear I fight taking one last bite And I’m standing on the edge :||
4.
Silent Screams When I wake up in the morning and I’m thinking which way’s best To throw myself off buildings to land nicely on my head It might be time to rethink the direction of my path Take back control of the black hole that’s swallowing my heart ||: In a glass box staring out My words fall silent all around and You can’t hear me scream for help My mouth unmoving drowns me out :|| The pain deep in my chest I feel is like a spreading vine Reaching out it’s tendrils like a cancer in my mind Black like tar and thick like blood seeps in to every vein Fighting feels so futile when it’s paired with spreading shame All the failure of my past and on it goes through everything The failure in the path I walk, that voice of treason on it sings I can’t seem to block it out; I’m lost, I’m lonely, on my own The hissing bile it always spouts, I am nothing, voices groan ||: In a glass box staring out My words fall silent all around and You can’t hear me scream for help My mouth unmoving drowns me out :|| ||: I’m trapped inside a glass box I’m trapped inside this box And you can’t hear me screaming Because nothing’s coming out I’m trapped inside a glass box And i’m calling out your name But the silence keeps on falling While I can’t escape my shame :||
5.
Bitter 03:39
Bitter Sitting on the pile of hate that I collect and keep I’ve been tasting bile of late and it’s washing over me I said I could forgive you but I’m taking all that back I thought I would forget but you’re the focus of my wrath Everybody thinks you’re golden and the socials show your fame No one knows the truth about you but a snake you will remain Any time I see your name or your stupid happy face The violence I can feel uprising makes my body start to shake Hey! I’m bitter You got me here with hate Now I’m bitter My heart can’t stop this ache I’m bitter There’s comfort in this place While I’m bitter I never knew I had it in to want to rip someone apart But everything you say and do is like a poison to my heart Let me spit this out for you and let me make it crystal clear You’re lucky I don’t speak your name and smudge that super sleek veneer Now I know you’re “Punk as fudge” yeah mate, you’re sickly sweet and soft You’re a gutless, spineless wonder now I’m glad you binned me off I’m gonna say this one again just to make damn sure that you hear You’re lucky I don’t speak your name and smudge that super sleek veneer Hey! I’m bitter You got me here with hate Now I’m bitter My heart can’t stop this ache I’m bitter There’s comfort in this place While I’m bitter ||: I wish I could say I wish you well But I still hope you burn in hell :||
6.
Poor Man’s Show Take a big look around - you can’t tell me that you’re proud Of the country that we live in while it’s run by wealthy cavemen When we’re moving out the homeless for a clean looking wedding For a palace full of fools dining on a poor man’s earnings You seriously think that we should be ok With the suffering we see on the streets of decay When lying in their homes and shivering in bed There’s people who are sick who’ve had cuts to their care And there’s children getting ricketts while their parents are gone hungry Cos the food they can afford does no good but fills their bellies How can we go on with life So broken down by those who thrive We’d rather sew our mouths tight shut Than think about how we’ve messed up Ooh it’s a poor man’s show We’d rather sew our mouths tight shut Than think about how we’ve messed up Tightest squeeze on budgets in NHS historics Death rates up in hospitals, no mental health resources Ambulances forced to wait while waiting rooms are full And there’s people having heart attacks out on the stone cold floor There’s no more money for the nurses to do the jobs we need But apparently there’s trillions for bombing overseas How can we go on with life So broken down by those who thrive We’d rather sew our mouths tight shut Than think about how we’ve messed up Ooh it’s a poor man’s show We’d rather sew our mouths tight shut Than think about how we’ve messed up Four people stabbed in a night is a norm When the police are replaced with a screen on the arm No control that we see for the brutality Is a double edged sword when we’ve lost the bobby Cos it’s the fight for our rights and the right to feel safe But there’s no money left for either problem they say And we’re left feeling numb to everything that we see Cos every day there’s something that should never have been We’re right to feel angry, betrayed and awake To the tyranny forced on our heads every day I’m sick of being told that the fault lies with us When the perversion of justice sits in parliament How can we go on with life So broken down by those who thrive We’d rather sew our mouths tight shut Than think about how we’ve messed up ||: Ooh it’s a poor man’s show We’d rather sew our mouths tight shut Than think about how we’ve messed up :|| We’d rather sew our mouths tight shut….
7.
Panic 03:14
Panic! Hey! Where you from? Do you like the taste of blood It’s on your hands! And your tongue… spreading fast just like poison And still we spray all around the killing draught on all the land Their voices pray for an end to the torture we’ve become ||:Panic, panic we’ve got to put the fire out Why don’t you panic, panic about the oceans crying out Wake up and panic, panic the World is quickly dying out You’re blind to panic, panic :|| Panic, panic! Trawl the bottom ‘til marine life is all gone Pollute the waves with ignorance ‘til there’s plastic in our lungs Participate in the fun - we’ve fed our planet destruction And still we sit on our thumbs; procrastination’s all we’ve done It’s time to ||:Panic, panic we’ve got to put the fire out Why don’t you panic, panic about the oceans crying out Wake up and panic, panic the World is quickly dying out You’re blind to panic :|| Panic, panic! Hey! Where you from? Do you like the taste of blood It’s on your hands! And your tongue… spreading fast just like poison And still we spray all around the killing draught on all the land Their voices pray for an end to the torture we’ve become ||:Panic, panic we’ve got to put the fire out Why don’t you panic, panic about the oceans crying out Wake up and panic, panic the World is quickly dying out You’re blind to panic, panic; Panic panic! :|| Panic Panic!
8.
Glitter Mix 04:38
Glitter Mix Brave little innocent, sweet lemon on your pretty lips Travel like the world’s been given but you bathe in ignorance Watch as your body’s taken, skin stripped of glitter mix You’d sell your soul for powder when you’re low and needing one more hit And we watch And we watch And we watch as she fades away Yeah we watch And we watch And we watch as she fades away She’s fire, she’s beauty, she’s a mess on ketamine Forgot what she’s been drinking, can’t remember what she did with him Her face is like a rose; petals falling from it after snow While her party rages on, the next line will let her lose control Brave little innocent, makes cherry bombs for all the girls Her eyes full of wonder, buying love with stardust doesn’t work Though she sees that others love her harder than all the rolled up candy guns She wipes the canvas of tomorrow while we stand and watch her colours run Her colours run Her colours run….. And we watch And we watch And we watch as she fades away Yeah we watch And we watch And we watch as she fades away
9.
Not Ok 03:20
Not Ok People keep on telling me that it’s ok If I’m not ok then know there will be better days But I’m sat here in my kitchen with my mental knife in hand I’ve been chopping at my throat for days and I still don’t see the sun So don’t ask me if I’m fine ||: I’m not ok I don’t see myself being that way I haven’t been for years But I’ve got masks made up to cover up my tears :|| I’m not ok... I’ve been building up my repertoire of daily songs to sing They’re ones that people need to hear when they say anything Well I’m singing that I’m fine today and I’ll sing it back to you But my mask just cracked, now I’m back stage in my darkest room So don’t ask me if I’m fine ||: I’m not ok I don’t see myself being that way I haven’t been for years But I’ve got masks made up to cover up my tears :|| I’m not ok...
10.
Burnout 03:58
Burnout New town New lights New faces every night In turn Heartburn Beer stains and nighttime drives We work All day Two jobs on minimum wage No sleep For weeks No time to rest when you follow your dreams When everyone goes While everything fades Never feels like its gone to waste We still hit the road I’ve been here before It couldn’t be more Familiar Its home When the panic hits And the deadlines are missed We’ve got nothing to lose We keep on Feel like we crash Spinning plates we can’t catch As we run for the finish line Holding hands as we burn

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released October 23, 2020

Produced, mixed and mastered by John Mitchell at Outhouse Studios, Reading.

Written by Millie Manders, James Pendle, Alessandro Vitiello, Dominic Walker and Georgina Boreham

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